whipped cream with cheese and sugar and Baileys. 

first layer 

spongy. 

soaked sponge fingers 

last layer 

Doesn't this look absolutely scrumptious? 

Simple Tiramisu

1 pound mascarpone cheese
1 cup heavy whipping cream
1/2 cup granulated sugar
3 tbsp Rum
20 Sponge fingers
cocoa powder
2-3 ounces (double shot) espresso
1/2 cup coffee
unsweetened dark chocolate shavings

Simple??

We'll see......

You said, I Am

Pencil marks on the wall, i wasn't always this tall

You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed

You watched my team win

You watched my team lose

You watched when my bicycle went down again

And when i was weak, unable to speak

Still i could call You by name

And i said, Elbow Healer, Superhero

Come if You can

You said, I Am

Only sixteen, life is so mean

What kind of curfew is at 10pm?

You saw my mistakes

And watched my heart break

Heard when i swore i'd never love again

And when i was weak, unable to speak

Still i could call You by name

And i said, Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper

Be my best friend

And You said, I Am

You saw me wear white by pale candlelight

I said forever to what lies ahead

Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream

And when i am weak, unable to speak

Still i will call You by name

Shepherd, Saviour, Pasture Maker

Hold onto my hand

You say, I Am

The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us

So we find a foothold that's familiar

And bless the moments that we feel You nearer

When life had begun, i was woven and spun

You let the angels dance around the throne

And who can say when but they'll dance again

When i am free and finally headed home

I will be weak, unable to speak

Still i will call You by name

Creator, Maker, Life Sustainer

Comforter, Healer, my Redeemer

Lord and King, Beginning and the End

I Am

Yes I Am

Written by Nicole Nordeman

Milestone! 

Milestone

When i look at the letters, i'm pretty convinced that i'm graduating. Altho it probably won't hit me til i'm wearing the Harry Potter gown and squinting at excessive flashes from multiple cameras. Preparing to start this academic year, a verse popped into my head- "Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken." really wanna claim this in Psalms 16:8.
The Psalmist describes the Lord as a giver of good things! He has assigned and secured our portions and inheritances.
I'm really amazed at the opportunity, altho i'm really literally afraid to take up the program (heard its demanding and challenging). There're actually plenty of uncertainties- will i get PR? will i work in perth? will i go back to sg? What job will i hold? What lies ahead?

I'm also trusting God for changed lives this year. I believe He's turning the hearts of the children to the fathers and vice versa! I can see reconciliation already!

God, i know that whatever happens, you are faithful til the end.

Faith is the...
By George Mueller

Faith is the eye by which we look to Jesus
A dim-sighted eye is still an eye; a weeping eye is still an eye

Faith is the hand with which we lay hold of Jesus.
A trembling hand is still a hand. And he is a believer whose heart within him trembles when he touches the hem of the Saviour's garment, that he may be healed.

Faith is the tongue by which we taste how good the Lord is.
A feverish tongue is nevertheless a tongue. And we may believe, when we are without a smallest amount of comfort; for our faith is founded not upon our feelings but upon the promises of God.

Faith is the foot by which we go to Jesus. A lame foot is still a foot.
He who comes slowly nevertheless comes.

***

I cannot say i have witnessed much in my life.

Despite that, i believe that God is moving and He will continue to move in my life and among my loved ones.

So many times in my life when i've thought myself to be achieved, accomplished and direction-driven the Lord has stopped me in my tracks and shown me how broken i am, how i keep resentful thoughts, how i am but susceptible to this world i live in.

was reading the book "Drawning near" by John Bevere on the plane- when God reaffirmed a message i had heard in church some 5-6 years ago.

"It is not that we profess Christianity; attend Bible-believing churches; or are nice people- it is not these that separates us from all the others on the face of this earth. It is His very presence that distinguishes us and makes us holy (separated to Him)."

I don't want to be content with the theory of this relationship without the intimacy, i don't want to settle for an intellectual discussion, i don't want knowledge and wisdom void of Your presence.

Come and fill my cup til it overflows.

God, how amazing that u came and u seek to be near to me. You desire to know my innermost thoughts, You knit me in my mother's womb.

You pursue me.... how i long to be in Your courts!

I have done nothing to deserve You- You are amazing God.

Hi people,
been back in perth for a day and a half now... still cleaning up the house in bits and replacing old stuff that has fallen apart. Also trying to get my bro's internet connection up, some local area network conflict. The weekend i foresee is going to be quite a breezer, just waiting for next week to kick in. It's also really hot. i'm so baked just by taking a walk to broadway.

i locked myself out of the house yesterday- when jon was at school... had to run to hampden to get keys from agent. sigh. It's 30-35 degrees baking. Thank God the house has a natural cool, if not for that- even 10 fans will not circulate the air. There's no wind. ;p

Time for some ice cool fruit juice.
ciao.

Lesson Learnt

Having to learn a lesson yourself, instead of from the mistakes of others- requires heartaches, inconveniences and alot of time wasted.
Well, thank God for us the waste wasn't a lifetime or years. It was a whole afternoon.
We missed our morning flight to perth today.
So learning double lessons- facing the music and taking responsibility. (means NO BLAMING)

Lesson Learnt.

Chinese New Year!

This year of the dog thing is getting abit mad. haha everywhere i go i see dogs.

Anyway, met up with secondary school classmates last night! Had a really good time catching up and time really flies when u're having a blast. We sorta try to do it on a yearly basis. AT LEAST. almost didn't get everyone together this year, still majority of us came. ; ) everyone's changed- but in a nice way we're all still the same. haha, i dunno how that works.... go figure.

The other day on the cab, the taxi driver actually said my spoken chinese is good. haha, i was really shocked. a few years back a cab driver scolded me for my lack of roots in the language. haha. anyway, last night sarah picked me up for the gathering in the cab and it was dark and at night- i spoke to the driver in chinese and was shell shocked when 1 second after i opened my mouth i realised he was malay. SO embarassed! i apologised immediately! that sarah just stare at me and laugh. haha.

ok gotta go dentist. clean teeth. byebye.

HELD BY HIS HANDS - - -by Max Lucado

You and I are on a great climb. The wall is high, and the stakes are higher.

You took your first step the day you confessed Christ as the Son of God.

He gave you his harness—the Holy Spirit. In your hands he placed a rope—his Word.Your first steps were confident and strong, but with the journey came weariness, and with the height came fear.

You lost your footing. You lost your focus. You lost your grip, and you fell.

For a moment,which seemed like forever, you tumbled wildly.

Out of control. Out of self-control. Disoriented. Dislodged. Falling.

But then the rope tightened, and the tumble ceased.

You hung in the harness and found it to be strong. You grasped the rope and found it to be true. You looked at your guide and found Jesus securing your soul. With a sheepish confession, you smiled at him and he smiled at you, and the journey resumed.

Now you are wiser. You have learned to go slowly. You are careful.You are cautious, but you are also confident. You trust the rope.

You rely on the harness. And though you can’t see your guide, you know him. You know he is strong.

You know he is able to keep you from falling. And you know you are only a few more steps from the top. So whatever you do, don’t quit.

Though your falls are great, his strength is greater.

You will make it. You will see the summit. You will stand at the top. And when you get there, the first thing you’ll do is join with all the others who have made the climb and sing this verse:

“To him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy—to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! (Jude 24 NIV).

P.S This makes rock climbing really meaningful.

Had a good trip at Bangkok. not many pictures- too busy walking around and shopping. The shopping places are huge. even our 3 days not enough to cover a small part. ;p Next time perhaps. ;)

One more week and a couple more days til i'm back in perth. Bought a couple of good acoustic CDs whilst perusing christian bookstores like Life bookstore and Trumpet Praise. Paul Colman's "Let it go" is an extremely good buy. love the lyrics. Another one was Chris Tomlin "Live in Austin"- Live worship in Texas. super great worship songs. Latest buy is Nicole Nordeman's "Woven and spun".

Some thoughts- Written on 17th Jan
Nobody has control over our free will, our choices. We always beg to differ- we say situations, circumstances, people and even fate determines our paths in life.
The truth is, even out Maker, the creator of all the earth gives us a free will, a choice- to choose what is right, what is pleasing and holy in His sight. We can choose to do that, or choose to please people and ourselves.
It's an every choice, sometimes we fall and stumble. There's no doubt about that, I lose sight of who I am in Christ. I forget that I am Christ's beloved.

Such a wonderful revelation that the God of the universe does not control nor coerce us like robots to do His bidding. He loves us with an awesome love, such a deep love- it is unfathomable, uncontainable.

He sees the depths of my heart and loves me the same.
You are amazing God.

This is a nice song written by Nicole Nordeman "Even Then"

- very significant for me.

It's a fear that keeps me wide awake

In the middle of the night

When the expectations are too great

And the bar gets raised too high

So I do the best with what I've got

And hope that no one knows

That I strain to see how high i can

Try to stand on these toes

Until I'm measured, but You know better.

So thank you, Jesus

Even when You see us just as we are

Fragile and frail and so far

From who we want to be

So, thank You, Jesus

Even when the pieces are broken and small

Dreams shatter and scatter like the wind

Thank you, even then

So i put aside the masquerade

And admit that i am not okay

Which may not be the thing to say

But i'm not ashamed to need you more each day

We raise the standard and try to reach You

But we'll never make it, and we don't need to.....

YAYA sisterhood.
Gathering at Tan's place for the annual round of poker.

Tan's 25th wedding anniversary celebrations at ACS Barker Oldham Hall Chapel. a.k.a the annual get together for people studying all over the world. ; )

Brother's Passing out Parade at Brani HQ. Maritime policing course at Coast Guards.

New Year Countdown party with the Network!

Here I am
In a river of questions
Can i pour my heart out to a listening ear?
I see this life
Its valley's and mountains
And i think of all the roads that brought me here

I've questioned my reasons
The life i'm living
I've questioned my ability
To judge wrong from right
I've questioned all the things that i've ever called certain
My race, my religion, my country, my mind

But the one thing i don't question is you
You really love me like you say you do.
Hold me.

I've questioned significance
Meaning and relevance
Does the work i'm doing really matter at all?
Well i've questioned my friendships
Alliance, dependence
Who will still be here when i fall?

Only one thing doesn't change
Only one thing stays the same
All i know at the end of the day is your love remains.

"The one thing"- Paul Colman, Jason Ingram

Hi all, decided to put in words amidst the pictures.
The Krabi trip was great! especially catching up with old friends and just hanging out at the beaches. i think i wanna go back.
Tigerairways is bearable for 2 hrs nonetheless. haha. minimalist travellers with budgets.

To all those i'm getting climbing shoes for.... the load has occupied half my luggage. pls treat me lunch or dinner when i'm back. haha. Went for a shoe buying spree today. Got Gav's Anasazi's and Galileo's, plus 3 pairs of Madrock Hooker Zip's. haha. going mad. (sorry mari, no madrock flash. haha too expensive! i can paint the hooker's orange for u if u want.)

umm. haha i'm flying off to bangkok for the weekend. with my mom, aunt and bro. ; )
Really hope the weather is better den wat i've experienced the past week. been soo dreary and wet here. sigh.

So hows the weather in perth? nice and sunny i hope! ;p
going insane waiting for the sun to come out. maybe i'll find it in bangkok.

Feel like eating Bak Kwa.

byebye.

Nice Breakfast!


Those cliffs- managed to climb a few ahha.

Phi Phi islands, Maya beach, Bamboo island... these were a couple of places we went. Fantastic beaches- clear cool water... THE LIFE!
Some Clams
Group Photo!
Nice sunset with a Longtail boat

Here fishiiieeee fishieeee

This was my 2005 Christmas! haha better late den never....

Hello 2006....

"Ask of me and i will give the nations, as an inheritance to you- the ends of the earth your possession." Psalms 2:8

Met up with many old friends yesterday night. We were seated in Cafe Cartel on Pervis St- and we did one of those FCBC things-- share about our year's thanksgivings and hopes/goals for the new year. It was very encouraging and affirming to just listen to what God has done in 2005, is doing and will do in the coming year. There is no doubt that He is good- His love endures forever.

For me, i think 2005 has been a trying year. God has taught me how to love, laugh and hope. He has shown grace and mercy despite my shortcomings, failures and weaknesses. Any stubborness on my part, He has turned it into a moulding process. He has blessed. In my studies, my family, my relationships and friendships. He is a good God- His love endures forever.

For 2006- i know that amidst the uncertainty there is a security that can never be found in the things that are seen. This certainty of the knowledge that God holds my hand. No matter what happens, He will never let go. For this new year, many challenges lie ahead... i can't begin to count them. But the Lord has in store good things- many surprises and goodies for the ones He loves. Remember to claim them! The same God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob resides in you. What power that releases in your life!

Looking forward to start school soon. ; ) i miss you perthlings. be back in a jiff.

EXTRAVAGANT GIVING - - -by Max Lucado

We delight in giving our loved ones extravagant gifts, don’t we? Especially at Christmas. Yes, we give gifts throughout the year—birthdays, anniversaries, and other special occasions—but at Christmas time, we put a little more effort into finding that extra special gift for that special person, or persons, in our lives. An engagement ring. A family portrait. A special edition leather-boundbook. A set of golf clubs. Diamond earrings. A puppy. Whatever the gift might be, we want it to be a bountiful expression of our love. Maybe it has something to do with the lavishness of the gift that first Christmas morning, the extravagance of love that came in theform of a tiny, helpless newborn. Consider the gift for a moment,what Jesus really did. He swapped a spotless castle for a grimy stable. He exchanged the worship of angels for the company of killers. He could hold the universe in his palm but gave it up to float in the womb of a maiden. He humbled himself. He went from commanding angels to sleeping in the straw. From holding stars to clutching Mary’s finger. The palm that held the universe took the nail of a soldier.

Why? Because that’s what love does. It puts the beloved before itself. Your soul was more important than his blood. Your eternal life was more important than his earthly life. Your place in heaven was more important to him than his place in heaven, so he gave up his so you could have yours.And that’s what extravagant giving is all about—love, God’s love, alove that knows no limits, no end. The Christmas kind of love. The type of love we are commanded to give to others: “So now I am giving you a new commandment: Love each other. Just as I have loved you,you should love each other” (John 13:34 NLT)

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's" Your Power Color?

Got this from Mavis' blog. interesting... haha at least it's my favourite colour GREEN. ; )

Hiatus

Yea, was not really on a blog break. ;0)
so i'm back!!!
didn't do much since i've been back in sg.
Lazing around. walking around. ate quite a bit of good food.
Met up with friends.
In anticipation for christmas.
Went for FC's first expo service- the max pavillion is huge.

Just sorta on a mind-break. (the kit kat kind)
looking forward to the Krabi trip. i wanna dive n climb.
That shld kick start my new year ahead. ; ) hehe.
just a short post here. will update more soon!

gosh
i am so nervous.
i am about to play scissors, paper, stone with myself,
and i'm not sure which hand is going to win this time.

Yes, i did the same climb- but no one was avail to take pics. Mari was belaying me, and Gavin was supervising. hehe.
High mountain quarry walls.

These two girls ate lobster!
happy 21st bday mari!
my oysters!
hehe, this time we're smiling normally.

After the oyster bar dinner; ) kindly sponsored by the winning team: Darren, Derell, Jo, Gabes and Khai Hock. We ate ALOT!
At the table. Ambience was fantastic!

The Girls.

Amazing 6Race ; ) we had loads of fun! Best "packaged" team apparently *winks*

Team Chilli Crab!

Note: all car decoration was perfectly removable. ; )