Saturday, January 10, 2009

Alone?

I've been struggling with this- or maybe us, as women we do struggle with this feeling of 'You are alone/ When they see who you really are, you will be alone /No one will ever truly come for you.'

It's a fear which has crippled me for very long.

You know that scene from The Two Towers, which takes place in the land of Rohan, in the hall of the king, in the chambers of the lovely Eowyn. She is the king's niece, the only Lady of the court. Her dearest cousin, Theodred, the son of the king, has just died from wounds he received in battle. She is grieving her loss when Wormtongue- supposed counselor to the king, but a teacherous, vile creature- slinks into her chambers and begins to weave his spell around the unprotected maiden.

Wormtongue: O... he must have died sometime during the night. What a tragedy for the king to lose his only son and heir. I understand his passing is hard to accept. Especially now that your brother has deserted you. [Wormtongue arranged for his banishment.]

Eowyn: Leave me alone Snake!

Wormtongue: O, but you are alone. Who knows what you have spoken to the darkness in bitter watches of the night when all your life seems to shrink, the walls of your bower closing in about you. A hushed, tremulsome, wild thing. (He takes her face in his hand.) So fair... and so cold. Like a morning with pale spring, still clinging to winter's chill.

Eowyn: (Finally pulling away from his clutch.) Your words are poison.

Oh, but you are alone. This is the way of the Evil One toward you. He plays upon a woman's worst fear: Abandonment. He arranges for her to be abandoned, and he puts his spin on every event he can to make it seem like abandonment.
Our own sins have a large enough role to play and the Evil One will drive home the point- he fears who you are; what you are; what you might become.

This is the voice of your King. This is God's heart toward you:

For Zion's sake I will not keep silent,
for Jerusalem's sake I will not remain quiet,
till her righteousness shines out like the dawn
her salvation like a blazing torch.

The nations will see your righteousness,
and all kings your glory
you will be called by a new name
that the mouth of the Lord will bestow.

You will be a crown of splendor in the Lord's hand,
a royal diadem in the hand of your God.
No longer will they call you Deserted,
or name your land Desolate.
But you will be called Hephzibah (my delight is in her),
and you land Beulah (married)

for the Lord will take delight in you,
and your land will be married.
As a young man marries a maiden (he pursues her)
as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride (you are lovely)
so will your God rejoice over you.

Isaiah 62:1-5 (itallics added)

I might take a lifetime to understand this:
That I am passionately loved by the God of this universe,
and I am passionately hated by his Enemy.

Just some thoughts!

[ Two Tower quotes and bible verses taken from 'Captivating' by Stasi Eldredge]

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