Where's a hole in the earth?

i want to jump in.

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

Look full in His wonderful face

And the things of the earth

Will grow strangely dim

In the light of His glory and grace.

sailing was a blast! 

See how Faith is enjoying herself?? haha 

A-hoy captain! 

Haven't played netball in ages!
But when i subbed for a friend's team today- i realised how much i miss it.
As far as my secondary and College education goes, i've always been on the netball court at least thrice a week, that makes 12 times or more in a month, and therefore 144 times a year (minimum).

I love the sport.
It's so elegant yet aggressive. (altho non-contact)
Just watch any professional team play- e.g the commonwealth finals between Australia and Singapore and you'll see why the game requires agility and balance.

Anyway, the game was really fast-paced today. It's a mixed-league. So 3 guys maximum out of the 7 players. With guys in the game its much faster- way faster actually.
I was quite out of breath by the end of the 1st half, and the opposition put a fresh pair of legs on me for the second half... haha, by that time i starting running smart. (means, not running so much). hahaha.

Just needed competitive sport to wash away pent up frustration and anger.
Really helps.

I am only me.
Yes, i can feel down.
i can feel lonely and tired.
i can feel that i don't have strength.
i can feel unappreciated.
i can feel emotionally unsupported.

i can feel alot of things.
Yes. i feel.

God, use me in my limited capacity.

Chels and I-- Yay finally!! 

Family ; ) 

I love my new shoes!!  

These shoes are almost heavenly to walk in!
Mom bought them for me yesterday- i love the feel and the comfy-ness.
They had them in white too, but orange had more appeal. (right mari?)
so excited to wear them now.... ;p

P.S Miss koh, the brand is Jo and Max- wonder if they have them in the states? scrumptiously comfy; )

"My Desire"

You want to be real
You want to be empty inside
You want to be someone laying down your pride
You want to be someone someday
Then lay it all down before the King

You want to be whole
You want to have purpose inside
You want to have virtue and purify your mind
You want to be set free today
then lay it all down before the King

[Chorus:]
This is my desire
This is my return
This is my desire to be used by you

You want to be real
You want to be emptied inside
And I know my heart is to feel you near

And I know my life
It's to do your will
It's to do your will

All my life I have seen where you've taken me
Beyond all I have hoped and there's more left unseen
There's not much I can do to repay all you've done so I give my hands to use

By Jeremy Camp

Faith is the foot by which we go to Jesus.

A lame foot is still a foot.

He who comes slowly nevertheless comes.

when derell and mavis have grandchildren- it'll look smth like this.  

Extra big for greater slackers.  

Sampan? 

teapot 

Artwork display at Cottesloe beach 

My mind is quite blank- altho there are a couple of issues floating around.

i think sometimes i choose not to deal with it-- either because there is nothing i can do about it, or i just don't want it to affect the way i choose to serve in the ministry.
i suppose after the drama HOD meeting i felt so much more willing to support Roy because i know this is where God has placed me.
Alot of times dealing with the backstage and being in the background gives so much fulfilment and satisfaction. You see people grow and take up the challenge, you see new people and old people, you just do your best.

This is the people-loving business. i've never felt like i wanted to run cell like an announcements booth or a number boosting scheme. And i don't want to lose this inital cause for why i'm still doing what i am.

He first gave.

The choice we all make is this: either we're good enough on our own, through our belief system and morality, to make it to heaven; or we're not, and we have to cast ourselves on the mercy of God through Christ to get there. Those are the only 2 systems of religion in the world. One is a religion of human merit; the other recognizes that we find true merit in Christ alone, and it comes to the sinner only by grace. There may be a thousand different religious names and terms, but only 2 religions really exist. There is the truth of divine accomplishment, which says God has done it all in Christ, and there is the lie of human achievement, which says we have some sort of hand in saving ourselves. One is the religion of grace, the other the religion of works. One offers salvation by faith alone; the other offers salvation by the flesh.

John MacArthur- "Jesus, the Lord"

"Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6

How true indeed.

Majesty, Majesty

Your grace has found me just as i am

Empty-handed but alive in your hands.

My very own Bible Handbook/Commentary- bought at a very good price from koorong. so satisfied and proud that i finally got myself a commentary + Historical reference. ; )  

Whoever invented the Honours Program meant for ordinary people to undergo gruelling torture.
Anyway, i've had to sit thru 2 seminars so far already- and my american-slanged lecturer thinks he's quite funny. but actually i do laugh, cos he's really such a funny sight. He's tall, has a greying moustache (a lil' sticking out from the bottom lip), big round specs, and his favourite word is "interesting". haha.
My supervisor's Samina... *yay* Altho i think she's too busy to remember to pay me for some research i'm doing for her... but that's fine cos she's always inviting me to dinner at her house in Dalkeith! haha i wonder if Pakistani food has a distinct cuisine to it. like jap food or thai food. hahah. i'll need to find out. ; )

i shan't reveal my possible honours dissertation topics here... but i've got interesting (said in the american way) topics lined up!! hehe. Shall attempt to enjoy the research but loathe the workload. ; )

i can't think of enough words to describe you.
you make me so mad.
Don't push your responsibilities to me.
You are already my responsibility.
When will you grow up?
Don't you think you're very ignorant?
Do you choose to be this way?

DO'nt tell me you don't know.
i absolutely detest the words "don't know".
you use them too often to shirk away.
You make it seem my fault.
you are so hard to love.
so difficult to please.
too grown up to chide.
too young to understand.

God give me strength.....

Dear mishi,
It is at times when you feel the most safe that you are reminded of your past and the things that hold you back. such fear and such insecurity... you always tell yourself "oh no, not again Lord" ... it is almost that you think God is putting u thru endless tests, trials, misery... but the matter of fact is that you compromise. You tell yourself that its ok that God is faithful and that you are not. You convince yourself once in a while that many things are in grey areas. Then you regret, because you know that His heart grieves. you know that He sees and He knows even your innermost thoughts, your feelings. even before a word is on your tongue... He knows.
Isit simply human to err, isit human to neglect... is just human to ignore? Many times you're tired, you're just so frustrated at people and ultimately angry at yourself.
Have you lost the first love? You want to tremble in His presence, you want intimacy... but you stop at the door when He invites you into the inner courts.
Haven't you heard? Better is one day in His courts den a thousand elsewhere. Have you spent your days elsewhere? Have you forgotten his everlasting love when you were unloved?
How could you forget His love? How could you forget His mercy?
He satisfies your desires... great is the measure of our Father's love.
Even when you've strayed away, His love has brought you back and found you....
He satisfies.
Yes mishi.... He does.

Having you by my side

much a painful plight

at times a joyous ride

Flesh and blood they say

give us reason to believe

indeed love is the way

despite much grieve

There is satisfaction in life

Safely in His arms

warm in the embrace

of His mercy and grace.

Psalms 121

I lift up my eyes to the hills-

where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord,

the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let you foot slip-

he who watches over you will not slumber;

Indeed, he who watches over Israel

will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord watches over you-

the Lord is your shade at your right hand;

the sun will not harm you by day,

nor the moon by night.

The Lord will keep you from all harm-

he will watch over your life;

the Lord will watch over your coming and going

both now and forevermore.

ONE DAY AT A TIME MISHI.......

"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall lack nothing..."

Presenting our latest furniture addition- the multi-coloured sofa! It's also multi-purposed as a sofa bed; ) Adds a kinda homely, comfy feeling to the living room. I like.  

This may not be an international-award winning dish, but its really yummy! It's my lunch on most days and supper on some wintery nights. See the egg nestled lovingly among the noodles? i like it slightly runny so i can poke it and slurp it up! ; ) Cheers for Ramen.  

This is our lil' rustic home... plenty of bird activity outside, esp in the wee hours of the morning. that's the new shoe rack from Ikea. ;p