been increasingly busy... first day of school was a little overwhelming. Esp the Co-Op book store. Wrong day to get readers and stationery. Yet, i guess in my busyness, i know i'm focussed. i know i'm not doing most of the things that i am now to fill up time. This sem is prolly going to be one of the busiest times, but i know now that a daily agenda will become ur life agenda. Was thinking how many times u wake up to the day and by the end of it u wonder where it went. learnt from one of John C Maxwell sermons that TODAY MATTERS. He mentioned that we either spend today repairing what happened yesterday, or preparing for tomorrow. Either way, we do not live TODAY to its fullest.

Sometimes i equate my negativity to the fact that i'm a realistic person. i see things that cannot be done, and i stop there. dats it. i'm off to the next do-able thing. i guess it's a pride thing, i can't stand moving into the unknown, something uncertain- something i'm not sure of. Mom just emailed me "The peace of the lord will sustain me". She said, if we continue to become frustrated, we are not really trusting Him. Let our trust not be merely a gesture or a courtesy gift to God. May it be that reckless abandonment and total dependence.